Lately it seems like all anyone wants to know is how I feel, how ready I am, am I excited, yaddaya. Sometimes, I'm tempted to remind them I have a life outside of the wedding... but then I remember, 'Oh wait, no I don't.' So here's the lowdown on my current state for whoever else asks*.
Above all, I'm curious to know if people will keep asking me questions that only relate to my marital state going forward, eg: 'Are you excited about the marriage?' 'How does it feel being married?' 'How does it feel now that it's a year?' 'Are you used to it yet?' .... because if so, I'd like to suggest alternate conversation topics.
Only kidding. Topmost on my mind is my wedding-obsession, and hoping it's a passing phase. If not, will I be stuck crying over every single wedding blog I look at, ever? To be fair, I cried over them before too, but lately I'm about ten thousand times more emo than usual.
I blame the meds. Because, at twenty four, for the first time in my life, it looks like I'm hitting puberty. I'm developing pimples and rashes and all kinds of useless things I should have had when I was 13 and didn't. It's actually just a stress reaction, but still, it's hugely scary. I could also put in TMI here about needing to regulate my period for the month because I'm not allowed to get married with it on, but I'll spare you.
Also scary: the nightmares. I'm a really chillaxed person during the day, and all my stress kind of balloons up and goes crazy when I sleep. I usually sleep through my screaming and jumping and running, but it can be discomfitting for those around me. Which is why I'm glad I get to spend the next fifteen days or so all alone at home. Before going over to my parents' house for a week. And then all trooping back over to my house. Or atleast that's the plan, if I don't wig out and decide I don't want to leave office work alone for that long.
Why do I feel so guilty about taking time off for my wedding? I mean, this thing only happens once in my lifetime (that I know of.) It's just... there's no way I can get back to work till June 2nd, and then I'm taking off again June 18th to the 25th, and it just feels like asking for time before my wedding too will be overkill. Then I think that unpaid leaves don't really matter and I can totally just be Bridesy and take time off, but... yeah. So that's really the major thing on my mind right now, not the wedding itself, or anything associated with it.
*Except I think they don't really want to hear about this stuff, so I'll just beam my usual angelic beam and say, 'Oh my god, yes! I'm so excitedddd!'
Ok, so I feel a little guilty about asking you about the bachelorette, but only a little! :P
ReplyDeleteSucks about the acne, I suppose the weather doesn't help either. I would say its only 15 days, but its *15 days!* I would put a random smiley, but that's crappy too.
Ok, so here's to more bitching (really, do we ever run out of topics), more walks on the beach and Mynah stories :) (that was worth the random smiley!)
Heh, don't, *that* part is easy and fun to talk about, unlike the whole 'Oh, have you gotten your saris yet? And the blouses? What about the jewelry?' etc.
ReplyDeleteAs for the acne, it's one annoying pimple that sprouts up and goes off.. it's like Harry Potter's scar, only in pimple form :D So I suppose at least it's entertaining and all that.
Tralalala... wedding season!!!
Aiyi, somehow I always wondered how the wedding got set around period dares, but didn't actually come up with this.. *thwacks forehead*
ReplyDeleteHope the bachelorette makes up for it all!